How to carry on after losing your child?

✨️✨️✨️ Proud ✨️✨️✨️

My word for 2024. I always feel into a word for the new year. An energy I want to take with me all year long. To really embody and deepen every layer that will present itself along the way.

Proud of myself, my family and all there is and also is not. Losing my daughter opened a whole new level of depth. In a flash the innocence of life was gone. I still believe in the power of manifestation AND I believe we are not the only or greatest power. 

Life just is and you have to trust her. Always. In your highs and your lows. "Be and feel proud" was said to me a lot in the last months. 

"Be proud of your pregnancy. Be proud of how beautiful you gave birth. Be proud of the love you all are and radiate as a family." 

Be proud. Sounds so easy and sometimes I just couldn't. At least not without actively going there first. I had to open my heart, over and over again. 

I felt shame.

I felt anger.

I felt lost.

I even felt bad about my business result. Wtf???...I know...now...I didn't at that moment. The dark side of loss and fear takes you to places you don't want to be. It's not you. You have to feel it, never bypass, but don't stay there. There is always love and love heals everything. Always.

Every time life almost "forced" me to go back to the present moment and feel the love and joy that was in my heart. 

"Stop searching for reasons and bring pleasure to your present moment."

Pleasure, abundace, your life force, always brings you back home to you. Be proud. Feel, breathe and most of all let abundance in again. 

Be present. 

Be open. 

Be proud. 

Just a reminder for today. Be proud. Of all that's present in your life and all that is not. 

✨️ Be proud. ✨️